Attempting to somehow artfully describe what took place in my city on Sunday morning is a fruitless endeavor. The response is visceral and jarring. The idea that 49 of my fellow Orlandoans were brutally gunned down by a depraved coward is not one that I can currently reconcile. I’m at a loss for words—I’m at a loss for the place I call home.
Orlando, a global destination for fun, family and fellowship, has had her innocence ripped away. The LGBT community, one of inclusion and support and camaraderie has experienced a crushing and horrific trauma. There are the clichés and banalities about “Never truly understanding until it happens in your backyard” or “This type of thing doesn’t happen here” that get tossed around.
But it did happen here. It happened in a thriving part of downtown Orlando. A place full of cafes and eateries, small shops and family-owned businesses. It happened mere blocks from my old house.
While this community—my community—will take time to heal, it’s immensely important to note the immediate, positive responses from the people of Orlando. The heroic first responders who saved countless lives in spite of the direct risk to their own. The citizenry flocking in droves to the local blood center to donate blood and supplies. Those individuals sitting with complete strangers, comforting them in their time of unimaginable grief.
This is the Orlando I know—resilient, caring, hopeful, strong—not the victims that this madman has sought to define us as.
To the victims and their friends and family: We stand with you. We grieve with you. Our hearts break for you. We are all Orlandoans, and no effort to divide us will ever prove successful. We live in one of the most beautifully diverse states in the country, and, together, we will emerge from this tragedy stronger than before.
Please, keep your thoughts and prayers with all of the victims of the Pulse nightclub shooting:
Stanley Almodovar III, 23 years old
Amanda Alvear, 25 years old
Oscar A Aracena-Montero, 26 years old
Rodolfo Ayala-Ayala, 33 years old
Antonio Davon Brown, 29 years old
Darryl Roman Burt II, 29 years old
Angel L. Candelario-Padro, 28 years old
Juan Chevez-Martinez, 25 years old
Luis Daniel Conde, 39 years old
Cory James Connell, 21 years old
Tevin Eugene Crosby, 25 years old
Deonka Deidra Drayton, 32 years old
Simon Adrian Carrillo Fernandez, 31 years old
Leroy Valentin Fernandez, 25 years old
Mercedez Marisol Flores, 26 years old
Peter O. Gonzalez-Cruz, 22 years old
Juan Ramon Guerrero, 22 years old
Paul Terrell Henry, 41 years old
Frank Hernandez, 27 years old
Miguel Angel Honorato, 30 years old
Javier Jorge-Reyes, 40 years old
Jason Benjamin Josaphat, 19 years old
Eddie Jamoldroy Justice, 30 years old
Anthony Luis Laureanodisla, 25 years old
Christopher Andrew Leinonen, 32 years old
Alejandro Barrios Martinez, 21 years old
Brenda Lee Marquez McCool, 49 years old
Gilberto Ramon Silva Menendez, 25 years old
Kimberly Morris, 37 years old
Akyra Monet Murray, 18 years old
Luis Omar Ocasio-Capo, 20 years old
Geraldo A. Ortiz-Jimenez, 25 years old
Eric Ivan Ortiz-Rivera, 36 years old
Joel Rayon Paniagua, 32 years old
Jean Carlos Mendez Perez, 35 years old
Enrique L. Rios, Jr., 25 years old
Jean C. Nives Rodriguez, 27 years old
Xavier Emmanuel Serrano Rosado, 35 years old
Christopher Joseph Sanfeliz, 24 years old
Yilmary Rodriguez Solivan, 24 years old
Edward Sotomayor Jr., 34 years old
Shane Evan Tomlinson, 33 years old
Martin Benitez Torres, 33 years old
Jonathan Antonio Camuy Vega, 24 years old
Juan P. Rivera Velazquez, 37 years old
Luis S. Vielma, 22 years old
Franky Jimmy Dejesus Velazquez, 50 years old
Luis Daniel Wilson-Leon, 37 years old
Jerald Arthur Wright, 31 years old